Yesterday I had an MRI done of my brain.\u00c2\u00a0 I’ll find out the results some time next week.<\/p>\n
I was looking again at the brochure they give you ahead of time, and I had to laugh.\u00c2\u00a0 The brochure says, “You may feel some vibrations.\u00c2\u00a0 You will hear a loud, rhythmic tapping from the machine during your study.”\u00c2\u00a0 Talk about an understatement!<\/p>\n
Getting ready for the exam is rather cozy.\u00c2\u00a0 I put on a cotton gown that was quite modest.\u00c2\u00a0 They had me lie down on a table and put a pillow under my knees, like how I’d get comfortable in yoga class.\u00c2\u00a0 They gave me earplugs because the machine is loud.\u00c2\u00a0 They put pillows on either side of my head, which is how I like to sleep (or at least one side of my head) when I’m on my back, anyway.\u00c2\u00a0 They gave me a blanket.\u00c2\u00a0 To be honest, I’d been wanting to lie down all day!\u00c2\u00a0 (In fact, I’d done it a couple times in the break room at work.)\u00c2\u00a0 So it felt very good to have someone solicitously telling me to do so and making sure I was comfortable.<\/p>\n
I only wish they’d given me pillows for my arms.\u00c2\u00a0 My elbows were on the table — and the part of the table that didn’t move, so they kind of hunched up when the table slid me into the machine.\u00c2\u00a0 He’d told me to be perfectly still, so I was worried about adjusting them, and my shoulders were tense — and then what seemed like loud alarms went off!\u00c2\u00a0 Like Star Trek red alert warnings or perhaps prison break alarms.\u00c2\u00a0 Had I moved too much?\u00c2\u00a0 Did that mean I shouldn’t breathe?<\/p>\n
I kept thinking of the line from Galaxy Quest:\u00c2\u00a0 “I know that sound:\u00c2\u00a0 That’s a really BAD sound!”\u00c2\u00a0 At least it made me laugh — in my head only, because I was still a little afraid to breathe!\u00c2\u00a0 Surely they didn’t mean me to be so still I couldn’t breathe, did they?<\/p>\n
It took awhile, but I finally figured out that these ominous loud throbbing pulses were the “rhythmic tapping” the brochure had referred to.\u00c2\u00a0 They would switch from a high pitched red alert type to a lower pitched more ominous\u00c2\u00a0clear for the nuclear warhead sort of sound.<\/p>\n
Anyway,\u00c2\u00a0I figured out a better way to adjust my hands, and I was almost able to go to sleep.\u00c2\u00a0 The pulses were kind of mesmerizing, once you refused to let them alarm you.\u00c2\u00a0 With one set, it almost seemed like I could feel the molecules in my brain realigning, which was rather freaky, too.\u00c2\u00a0 I tried to sing in my head to go with the beat, and that really helped, especially to make me stop thinking so much about breathing.<\/p>\n
They really do need to reword their brochure, though, at least for people whose head is going in the machine.\u00c2\u00a0 Let’s see, it could say something like this:<\/p>\n
You may feel some violent shaking.\u00c2\u00a0 Do not be alarmed.\u00c2\u00a0 You will hear loud, ominous pulses through your earplugs, similar to alarms as in a prison break, air raid sirens,\u00c2\u00a0or red alert signals on a starship.\u00c2\u00a0 Do not worry, and try to breathe normally.\u00c2\u00a0 This is all part of aligning the molecules in your brain through the mighty power of magnetic resonance.<\/em><\/p>\n Hmm.\u00c2\u00a0 I have a feeling I know why they go for understatement.<\/p>\n Yesterday was the 23rd straight day of my headache.\u00c2\u00a0 I woke up with it real sharp, but on the opposite side.\u00c2\u00a0 That actually encouraged me, because my old migraines had a habit of switching sides right before they were ready to finally leave.\u00c2\u00a0 So this was acting more like a “normal” migraine for me.<\/p>\n Then I took an Indomethacin (a strong NSAID) and two Topamax (a new preventative the neurologist prescribed), and had breakfast and rested before work.\u00c2\u00a0 The headache pain really let up, but I felt dizzy and sick.<\/p>\n So — at work I looked up Topamax to see if dizziness was a side effect, and, well, I ran across another side effect and combined with something else I’d been experiencing,\u00c2\u00a0it dawned on me that the Topamax is completely negating the other medication I am taking to regulate my hormone levels.<\/p>\n So — what this means is:<\/p>\n 1)\u00c2\u00a0 Topamax is NOT a good preventative for me.<\/p>\n 2)\u00c2\u00a0 It could actually explain this extra long 24-day headache, because my headaches have always been hormonally related.\u00c2\u00a0 The Topamax may have made it worse instead of better.\u00c2\u00a0 So I don’t have to be puzzled if the MRI comes back clear, as I hope it does.<\/p>\n 3)\u00c2\u00a0 It explains why my emotions have been all over the place these past couple of weeks — and especially why I’ve been crying at the drop of a hat.\u00c2\u00a0 Whew!\u00c2\u00a0 I was starting to think I was just a basket case!<\/p>\n So — I called my neurologist to ask her to take me off the Topamax and put me on something else.\u00c2\u00a0 We had discussed the preventative I was on two years ago, which had worked so well, I stopped using it.\u00c2\u00a0 I am definitely leaning toward going back to that.\u00c2\u00a0 It also happens to be an antidepressant, and with everything else I am facing, I think that would be a nice migraine preventative to use!<\/p>\n However, she is out of the office for a “couple of days”.\u00c2\u00a0 Supposedly she had someone else filling in for her, but no one did call me back on Friday.\u00c2\u00a0 On my own, I decided to cut back the Topamax to one pill a day on Saturday.\u00c2\u00a0 Since they had\u00c2\u00a0me start out gradually, they will probably want\u00c2\u00a0me to stop gradually, too.<\/p>\n And today, it snowed!\u00c2\u00a0 I woke up feeling much better than I did on Friday, and the world is so beautiful!\u00c2\u00a0 But I only have three Indomethacin left, so I decided to save them for days when I have to work.\u00c2\u00a0 I took the one Topamax and some Naproxen instead, and ended up pretty wiped out with a headache.<\/p>\n I had hoped to go to our Open House at the Library and then do the grocery shopping and then go to a friend’s book launch.\u00c2\u00a0 But I ended up doing none of the above.\u00c2\u00a0 If I had only had the bad headache, or if it had only been snowing, I might have done some of those things.\u00c2\u00a0 But I knew that driving in the snow would have made the headache pretty intense.<\/p>\n Oh and a new weird symptom is a sore neck, particularly when I swallow.\u00c2\u00a0 Lymph nodes?\u00c2\u00a0 I’m super tired, and it was all I could do to do the laundry and sweep the snow off the steps.\u00c2\u00a0 (I knew I should have bought a snow shovel!)<\/p>\n Tomorrow I don’t think I will make it to church, or to the book club I hoped to go to for the first time or to the prayer meeting in the evening.\u00c2\u00a0 My big goal for the weekend will be to buy groceries — I will have Tim with me to push the cart, so I think I can pull it off.<\/p>\n I’m developing a new fear that I will use up all my sick leave — which is partly why I’m rationing the last Indomethacin.\u00c2\u00a0 I need to use it on days when I work.\u00c2\u00a0 I’m still praying and trying to trust.\u00c2\u00a0 Whatever in the world is going on, God will get me through.\u00c2\u00a0 “When you pass through the waters [or the headaches], I will be with you.”<\/p>\n On the lighter side, I just got this big sense of well-being at the MRI yesterday.\u00c2\u00a0 I know people were praying for me; that must have been involved.\u00c2\u00a0 I got this\u00c2\u00a0nice\u00c2\u00a0sense\u00c2\u00a0of here is this big huge hospital full of people whose job is to care about how people feel.\u00c2\u00a0 And after a day of trying to work while feeling crummy, there was a nice man telling me to lie down and get comfortable and asking me how I was feeling.\u00c2\u00a0 It was very nice.\u00c2\u00a0 I had a nice meal at the almost empty cafe when I finished, and rush hour had almost finished when I drove home.<\/p>\n Today, too, it’s so nice that the first snow of the year hit a day when I don’t have to work.\u00c2\u00a0 I can get some things done, then lie down.\u00c2\u00a0 I was up in my room, with the windows open watching it snow, reading the delightful book, The Elegance of the Hedgehog, <\/em>and I even got to the place where it explains why they call it that.\u00c2\u00a0 The roads are supposed to be clear by Monday, so it’s simply snow to make things beautiful for a few days.<\/p>\n All that is to say, hey, I’m not feeling well; I’m actually feeling pretty lousy.\u00c2\u00a0 But I’ve got a chance to take care of myself, and that does feel good.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" Yesterday I had an MRI done of my brain.\u00c2\u00a0 I’ll find out the results some time next week. 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